Sunday, January 31, 2010

Sunday, 1/31/2010

So, yesterday's workout was good.  I got abut 800 Calories or so.  Today, I am hella sore.  I wonder if my moderate water intake contributed to that.  Or if the fact I did not do a long walking cooldown.  In any event, I am REALLY sore today.  Ouch.
I survived my diet pretty easily.  We're going over to my parents house today, so I'm going to have to really tighten the belt to avoid overeating.

Meal #1
Light yogurt - 100
Honey nut cheerios - 110
Blueberries - 50
Total - 260

Meal #2
Chicken, sauteed - 6 oz - 240 Cal
Soup - 200 Cal
Risotto (like 4 tbl spns) - 60
Salad, no dressing - 10 Cal
Low-cal biscotti - 40 Cal
Total - 550 Cal

Meal #3
Chicken with veggies and Whole Wheat couscous -
About 4 oz chicken, about 1/2 cup uncooked couscous, about 1 cup mixed veggies - tomatoes, carrots, celery
Salad
Total - 450 Cal

Snack -
3/4 cup Honey Nut Cheerios - 100 Cal

So - Bigger lunch and slightly bigger dinner than I had hoped for drove the calories up to almost 1400 today, I was hoping for 300-400 less.  I liked the way I started the day, but the carbs for lunch and dinner were too much.

Exercise - I was planning on NOT working out today at all.  "Recovery Day".  But at my parent's house, Dad wanted to go to the gym, so I tagged along.  I ended up doing 650 Calories on the treadmill - incline jog and walk.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Saturday, 1/30/2010

So - only one pound.  Not good.  I am totally not satisfied with that.  My goal for the program is 30#, so I need to really see bigger numbers right away.
I need to change my diet in a BIG WAY.  I am going to make a big shift in the way I eat.  I am only going to eat when I am hungry.  Weird, right?  Well, too often I find myself eating because it's dinner time.  I am afraid of letting go of food.  No idea why.  Just is like that.  That has to stop.  I try and justify it a million ways, "If I wait until I'm starving, I'll overeat." "My body needs fuel to keep the workouts going."  "If I get too low then my metabolism slows down too much."

Well, if I undereat, I will deal with that IF it happens.  My new goal is 1000-1200 calories a day.  Starting right now.  To that end, I am no longer writing breakfast, lunch, dinner.  I am not going to lump snacks into one (instead of scattering them throughout the day).

Meal #1 12:14 PM
Plan - Post workout - lean protein and veg.
Veggie omelet. 
1 cup mushrooms (sliced), 1/2 onion sliced thin, 1 Roma tomato - saute' with 2 pats unsalted butter
when mushrooms are tender, pour in 1/2 cup egg-white substitute.
I top mine with 2 dashes of Tobasco.
 186 Calories - 12 Carbs - 9 Fat - 15 Protein

Cantelope - 1/4 of melon - 53 Cal
Yogurt light blueberry - 100 - - 0 fat, 6 Protein, 18 Carbs

Total - 336 Cal

Meal #2
String Cheese - 80 Cal
Whole grain toast, with 1 tbl spn jelly - 80 Cal, + 50 Cal
Cantelope - 1/4 melon - 53

Total - 263

Meal #3
Turkey patty - 270 Cal
1 slice whole grain bread - 160
Sauteed veggies (zucchini, onions, mushrooms) in 1 tbl spn olive oil.
1/2 red pepper - 30
Lite mayo - 15
low cal vitamin water - 25 Cal

Total - 500

Snack
Light Yogurt - 100
Strawberries - 3 oz.

Exercise - I had team training today - ended up being around 800 calories, after my cooldown.


PS - I fixed the blog settings, so it's easier to leave comments now.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Friday, 1/29/10

Well, the kids are home today, so the whole schedule is off!  : (
No workout today (that is not that bad anyway, since I really think I needed a day to recover a bit).  Took the girls for our ritual lunch date at Glenn's Diner

Breakfast
1/2 cup Corn Pops - 100 Cal (but basically pure sugar)

Lunch
Salad (spinach, romaine, tomatoes, onion, cucumber) with:
1/2 Avacado - 150 Cal
3 oz Lobster - 75 Cal
2oz shrimp - 75 Cal
2 oz Trout - 150 Cal
3/4 cup Mac and Cheese - 400 Cal

OK, well, that was a HUGE lunch.850 Cal in one meal!  But - lots of lean protein.  The big mistake was obviously the mac n cheese.  Still, overall I am actually happy with the meal.  We ate very slowly.  We had lunch as a family.  The meal was nutritious, overall.  I am planning on having a VERY low calorie, low residue dinner.  After I finish this post, I'm taking in UNDER 200 Cal, and starting to get rid of a little bit of the 5 gallons of water (literally) that I've had since Tuesday's mega-workout.  Remember that I'm not keeping that water, I'm just borrowing it, but it take a while to work itself out.  I have been drinking 1 coffee a day, and about a gallon of water a day on Tues, Wed and Thurs.  Expecting to lose the TWENTY POUNDS of water that I consumed in 3 days is a bit much to ask.  So, I've done all the right things this week.  I have no idea what the scale is going to say tomorrow, but I've put in the work and it's really just the first week for me. I'm definately establishing a pattern of 5-6 days a week of workouts, and 1400-1600 calories per day.

Honestly though, I'm really nervous about the weigh in.  I'm not even competing, but I'm still pretty nervous about it.  In order for me to be on track I want 3 pounds tomorrow.  I don't know if that is going to happen, but that is my goal.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Thursday, 1/28/2010

Breakfast:
Coffee with cream and sugar - 100 Cal

Lunch:
Roast Beef Sandwich - 350

Dinner:
Greek Salad, no dressing - 500 Cal
Pita - 100 Cal

Snack:
Whopper Jr. - no mayo, no cheese - 260 Cal
Energy Bar - 180 Cal

Exercise - 700 Cal on the treadmill next to Tom, who certainly did MORE than 700 Cal.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Wednesday, 1/27/2010

Little bit sore today, but not horrible.  Didn't sleep real well, just couldn't get comfortable.

Breakfast: 
Apple
Coffee with cream and splenda

Lunch:
Whole wheat bread - 2 slices - 140 Cal
Turkey 3 oz - 90 Cal
hummus - 2 tblspn - 40 Cal
Goat Cheese - 2 oz:- 150 Cal
Cucumber
Tomato

Dinner:
Pork Chops - 0.5 oz (just a bite)
Bacon - 3 slices
Mac N Cheese - 1/2 cup
Brussel Sprouts - a lot - perhaps 2 cups
Salad (red bell pepper, cucumber, tomatoes, onion)

Snack (spread out over 2-3 snacks):
6 tbl spn humus - 120 Cal
Whole grain bread - 3 slice - 210 Cal
Turkey - 3 oz - 90 Cal
Apple

Exercise:
45 min mixed cardio at Bally's ~ 475 Cal

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Tuesday, 1/26/2010

Big workout day today.  My new plan is to do 30 minutes a day (or more) of workout on my own - whether or not I'm training with Tom or Courtney.  Also, Tom kinda threw down the gauntlet with me, so I really want to have a huge week.

Breakfast:
Coffee with cream - 100 Cal
Banana - 40 Cal

Lunch:
Jimmy John's #12 - no mayo, no cheese, extra sprouts, extra cucumbers - 450 Cal

Dinner:
Salad (no dressing) - 40 Cal
Chicken - 6 oz - 190 Cal
Whole Wheat Pasta - 1 cup - 225

Snack (scattered throughout the day)
3 granola bars - 300 Cal
2 String cheese - 180
Lite Yogurt - 80

Workout:
45 min cardio + 50 min with Courtney + 45 min cardio =
2250 Calories

The BIG NEWS?  I feel fine.  My Achilles are a little sore, so I took a walk after I got home from the gym - just to loosen up a little.  I'm going to ice up tonight and pound some more water (and maybe a few Tylenol).  The big deal will be working out tomorrow too so that I can STAY loose.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Monday, 1/25/2010

Breakfast:
1/2 Bagel with cream cheese - about 300 Cal
Coffee with cream and splenda - 75 Cal

Lunch:
Turkey Sandwich on whole grain bread - 400 Cal

Dinner:

Snack:

Exercise - BACK TO THE GYM!  I actually7 got there today.  Not a great workout, but 25 min on the eliptical and some weights for arms and chest.  I was in a bit of a hurry, since I go into work a little early today for meetings, but I squeezed it in.  Finally!  I had a good diet day yesterday for the most part, and I very much want the diet momentum to continue, adding 30-60 min exercise on my own (whether I work out with trainers or not) will make the difference between a 1-2 pound week and a 3-5 pound week (I hope).

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Sunday, 1/24/2010

Breakfast:
2 Yoplait lite blueberry yogurts

Snack:
String Cheese
Apple

Lunch:
2 slices whole grain bread
2 oz. brie

Dinner:
Poached Salmon (6oz.)
1/2 cup whole wheat cous cous, mushrooms, onions, 1 pat butter
Salad (no dressing)
Poached carrots, celery and onions

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Saturday, 1/23/2010

Breakfast:
Dunkin donuts coffee (no sugar, no milk)
DD egg, bacon, cheese to go wrap

Lunch:
Salad, 5 oz grilled chicken, 2 oz feta

Dinner:
Grilled chicken (skin on)- about 8 oz
Sweet potato



Exercise:
35 minutes of group exercise with Courtney.  I had pretty bad foot cramps today, I think I tied my shoes too tight to start with.  I am going to try to get a light workout in tomorrow to make up the time.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Thursday, 1/21/2010

Good diet day, but no gym.  My adductors were screaming at me today, so I wimped out.

Breakfast:
Coffee with mil, apple, peanut butter - 175 Cal

Lunch:
#12 Jimmy Johns, no cheese, no mayo, extra cucumbers, extra sprouts - 450 Cal
Light Chicken Taco - 125 Cal

Snack:
Lite, egg white turkey flatbread from Dunkin - 280 Cal
I have to admit that I was a little surprised that the Cal were so low on the Flatbread.  It was pretty good.  Of course, LOADED in Sodium, but pretty good otherwise nutritionally.

Dinner:
Greek salad (<1oz feta, ~2 oz chicken, <1 oz oil) ~300 Cal

So - I'm pretty full today, and under 1400 Cal, so good day, even without the workout.
Tomorrow I have training at 8AM.  My only issue there is the time - I dont work well that early - Daddy is totally gonna have to have some morning coffee!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

wednesday, 1/20/10

Katie stayed home from school today.  She had a good nap, we had lunch together, and walked together with Duffy for about a mile.  She's not gonna stay 5 forever, so I'mglad that some days I can keep her home and kinda cuddle her all day.  Aly and Katie are a huge part of the reason I'm doing this!

Breakfast:
PB&J (at about 3 AM) - 450 Cal

Lunch:
Coffee, with cream (just a drop, really) - 80 Cal
Salad with greens, onions, tomatoes, 1/2 avocado, and lots of fish (crab, shrimp, trout), dressing was lemon and oil - ~ 600 Cal

Dinner -
Homemade pizza with chicken, onions, tomatoes, mushrooms - totally yummy ~675 Cal

Snack:
String Cheese - 80 cal

Exercise - just the walk - 200 Cal, tomorrow is gym day, before work.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Tuesday, 1/19/2010

Feeling a little better today.  Still with incredible post-nasal-drip, and spells of pretty bad coughing, but better.

Breakfast:
1/2 Eggo - 80
coffee with cream and sugar - 100

Post-workout snack:
nature valley oats and honey granola bar - 190 Cal
String Cheese - 50
Low cal sports drink - 25

Lunch:
#12 from Jimmy Johns (no mayo, no cheese, extra cucumbers, extra sprouts) - 425

Dinner:
Chicken Kabobs
Whole Grain Cous Cous

Exercise:
Fitness eval -
45 min with Tom -
~700 Cal total
Gonna walk the Duff-man later today, I think.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Monday, 1/18/2010

Breakfast:
0.75 of an Eggo, with a touch of lite maple syrup (leftover from Katie)
1 slice cinnamon raisin bread
1 tblspn peanut butter
1 teaspn jelly

Lunch:
Whole wheat sub roll
2 oz turkey
1 tbl spn lite mayo
veggies
1 oz. potato chips

Dinner:
Chicken, tomatoes, capers, onions saute'd (no oil)
1/2 Cup Whole Wheat Fettucini
1 oz Parmesean

Exercise - 2 mile walk with dog, but no gym - big workout tomorrow. . . yikes!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Sunday, 1/17/10

So I took a few days off from the blog.  I didn't workout, and ate so-so.  I have been miserable with this totally normal cold. I am a big baby when I get sniffles, so that is my excuse.  I'm back at it today.

BREAKFAST:
Leftover Beef Fajita (no tortilla) - 400 Cal

LUNCH:
Wendy's grilled Chicken Go Wrap - 250 Cal

SNACK:
Popcorn (about 1 cup, popped) - 55 Cal
Shrimp Fajita (small tortilla, pesto, 2 shrimp) - 200 Cal

DINNER:
Lite Chicken Parmesan - 450 Cal
Salad with vinegar and oil - 150 Cal

Exercise - none to speak of, still having tough time breathing

Thursday, Friday and Saturday

 . . .were skipped secondary to illness.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Wednesday, 1/13/2010

Aly is home today because she was too tired to wake up this morning, and basically needed a mental health day (*she's 7*).  I still have my cold, which is settling in nicely into my chest.  Still, I can control my food today.

BREAKFAST
1/2 PB&J on whole wheat - 300 Cal
SNACK
1 cup Turkey Chili - 200 Cal
LUNCH
French Onion Soup - 300 Cal
Salad (no dressing, but I used lemon - which ended up squirting 100% into my eye making me blind for about 15 minutes and cause the worst pain I have ever felt - yeah, that kind of day) - 100 Cal
SNACK
1 cup turkey Chili - 200 Cal
DINNER
Chicken with Pesto - 400
Home made pizza - 400

1800 Calories, while home all day with the kiddo is really not too bad.  It is not the 500 Calorie deficit I wanted, really, but it's not far from it.  My goal is to get about 1400 Cal a day, but <1800 is ok.  The days where I go over 2000 Cal are the ones I worry about.

No additional inspiration today.  I hope to see Dr. Zhu tomorrow and get some of these cold symptoms under better control.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Tuesday, 1/12/10

I have some work at home today, but I think I'm feeling well enough to head to the gym once I get that done.  It's been almost a eek with no gym, so I'm eager to get back into a rhythm.

BREAKFAST:
Turkey Chili (not just for dinner anymore!): 300 Cal
Coffee with skim and splenda: 50 Cal

LUNCH:
Tuna Salad Wrap

DINNER:
Turkey Chili

SNACK:
Apple, carrots

I was thinking about the Season 2 Largest Losers from FHA.  So many of them did awesome.  There are so many things that they are doing better now.  The biggest difference?  Attitude.  The nervous laughs are almost gone.  All that is replaced by a huge stack of confidence.  Watching them work-out is so cool.  You see people ATTACKING their workouts.  And I'm not just talking about 1-2 people who got really fit.  I mean EVERYBODY.  They RUN.  They do GREAT pushups.  Their form is better, sure, but that hesitation is gone.  They are starting to trust their bodies.  You can see it when they are done working out.  Their movements are so much more confident.  The way they hold themselves up and walk into the clinic is remarkably different.  There is a great sense of pride to all of it.  Sure we can change people's bodies, but the real change is between the ears.  Now they they KNOW they can change into whatever they want, goals seem within reach and it's super cool.  For me, I definitely have had a better sense of pride.  I have so much further to go, that I want to avoid being over-confident.  But I know I can do it.  I take continue to take off 2 pounds a week until I am where I need to be.  My body can change into the body I want.  I have to keep THAT in my mind all the time, and it's sure to make the difference.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Monday, 1/11/2010

Still pretty sick today.  It's just a cold, but I'm all headachey and stufy and it's not too fun.
I didn't get a workout in over the weekend and I did a poor job tracking my Calories.  The good news is that I don't think I made too many poor diet choices.  We'll see when I get to the scale tomorrow.

Today's plan:
BREAKFAST:
Small coffee with cream and sugar - 100 Cal
Protein Bar: 280 Cal

LUNCH:
Salad with Chicken, Blue Cheese (no dressing) 400 Cal

DINNER:
Hot Dog, many veggies (no fries): 500 Cal

SNACK
Turkey Chili with Salsa: 400 Cal

Exercise - unlikely, unless the dog convinces me to take him for a walk.

I was thinking about what happens when you fall off the wagon with diet and exercise.  Many times I get pretty fatalistic about it.  I stop working out, then I feel defeated and embarrassed and I don't really start up again.  Same thing with the diet.  I have a bad day and that leads to two or three or 5 weeks.  Well, that was the way it happened before.  Now I have a very different opinion about fitness.
#1 - Fitness is not binary.  It is not 100% or 0%.  There is no all or nothing.  It is totally a spectrum.  You don't skip from 310# to 180# and poof! - - - you're FIT!  Fitness moves subtly.
#2 - Fitness is graded on 2 items - health and time.  The one that I am always forgetting is TIME.  You can't get skinny and fit and then say, "whew! That's over - bring on the ice cream!".  There is NO FINISH LINE.  The goal of getting fit is BEING FIT!  The journey from #310 to #190 (which is my goal) is all about the destination.  The path is where I learn everything I need to know about being healthy, and learning all those good behaviors.  However, once I am at my goal, the journey continues.  I will always have to work at exercise.  I will always have to make good diet choices.  ALWAYS.  Even when I'm "done", I'm not done!

So there is no wagon to fall off of.  The program never ends.  When you have a bad day, or bad weekend, it's just part of the journey, but the journey lasts your whole life whether you want to be on it or not.  So, since we're going to have these bodies anyway, we might as well take care of them!

UPDATE - Starting to feel a little better.  Hopefully, i'll be well enough by tomorrow to get to the gym!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Sunday, 1/10/2010

Still pretty sick.  I am not sleeping too well either because I'm so stuffed up.  Also, I am the biggest baby when I get sick.

Plan:
BREAKFAST:
1/2 PB&J
Pineapple
LUNCH:
1/2 Turkey sandwich
Pineapple
Apple
DINNER:
Turkey Chili
SNACK:
Apple
 Clementine Oranges

Gym: not really am option today.  I am having a bit of a hard time breathing, because I'm so stuffed up.
Did I mention that I'm a huge baby?

Saturday 1/9/20910

I'm pretty sick today.  Bad head cold.  Sinusitis is not fun.
Anyway, Kristin and I are home with the kids all day today.  So other than sleep, I need to go to the grocery store.
The plan
BREAKFAST:
Whole Wheat toast
LUNCH:
Hummus
Salmon Wrap (whole wheat tortilla)
Blue Chips and Fresh Salsa
DINNER:
Hummus
Turkey Sandwich on Whole Wheat

Gym:  I can't really move much today, so I'm skipping the gym.  I am really a baby when I get sick.   : (

Friday, January 8, 2010

Friday, January 8th, 2010

BREAKFAST:
Dunkin Donuts wake-up wrap - egg and cheese = 170 Cal
1/2 bagel - 170 Cal
1 oz cream cheese = 150 calories
Coffee with SKIM and splenda = 30 Calories
YIKES - 500 calories at breakfast!?!?!?  Not Good.

LUNCH:
Egg whites, Slice of Cheese, 1 slice whole wheat toast. - 250 Cal

DINNER:
Pasta Saltimboca - from The Italian Village downtown - at least 900 Cal

Gym - I have a lot of excuses today.  They are really good ones, I assure you! It's about 50-50 I will go (probably a little less than that).  Good news?  I've already spent 30 minutes shoveling snow, and Duffy (the dog) totally needs a walk today.  So, even if I miss the gym, it will be a pretty active day.

It is incredibly challenging trying to reverse a lifetime of habits.  The one constant is that nearly all habits because routine when you stop thinking about them.  The things you do automatically require no thought.  These actions are almost a passive response.  That's bad and dangerous.  We will never make a good decision when we are not trying to make a good decision.  Without thinking 'What is the BEST THING I can do right now?  What is MOST IMPORTANT to me?" - without that consideration, people (absolutely including myself) will just do the simplest thing.  Healthy living is not hard, but it takes more active thought than the couch potato.

Thursday, Jan 7th, 2010

Full disclosure, I am writing this on Friday.  I got home super-late from work because of traffic.

BREAKFAST:
Coffee with cream and splenda - 100 Cal
LUNCH:
Taco Bell - fresco chicken burrito - 350 Cal (which I will never have again - it has 1.3 GRAMS of sodium and it tasted awful - but I have tried their fresco tacos, and while those are salty too, they are better than this)
SNACK:
Granola Bar: 90 Cal
DINNER:
1.5 oz Lamb Chop
Salad with 2 oz Feta Cheese and a Pita - 1 oz Italian Dressing
SNACK:
2 pieces cinnamon raisin toast

Gym - none, but a 30 min walk with the dog through the snow.  I wasn't wearing my monitor, but it was pretty vigorous.  I also completely bailed out on starting my push-up, squat, crunches routine.

Today was a rough day.  I made a few bad diet choices.  I didn't overeat, per se, but the choices were still bad.  One of the traps I need to avoid is the mini-quit.  Where I 'take a break' from the diet and exercise for a few days.  Seriously, 1-2 bad days can ruin a week or two's worth of work.  I need to have better vigilance.  I need to pay more attention to where my head is and where my emotions are taking me.  Frustrated?  Bored?  Anxious?  Food is not the answer anymore.  I also need to think about why I don't spend 5 minutes doing exercises before bed.  It's a form of mini-quit.  I'm avoiding failure, avoiding embarrassment, avoiding everything by not starting.  Well, as long as I keep writing about it, I can't avoid it, so I might as well get the work done.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Wednesday, 1/6/2010

BREAKFAST
1 slice of cinnamon raisin bread: 100 Cal
Coffee, cream and splenda: 100 Cal
LUNCH
2 cups Vegetarian Chili: 250 Cal
1/2 Jalapeno cornbread muffin: 150 Cal
Salad with roasted fall veggies and 2 pieces of bacon: 300 Cal
DINNER
1/2 cup Tortelini: 100 Cal
Carrots: 50 Cal
SNACK:
???

Gym: elliptical 30 min, + walking warmup and cooldown = 478 Cal

I was pretty proud that I got to the gym today.  I also went out for lunch with a friend.I made some pretty good choices at lunch.  700 Calories while eating out RIGHT AFTER A WORKOUT is not a bad thing.  Especially when there were  2 pieces of bacon involved not a lot of fat or processed carbs in there.  In fact, I am so full from lunch that I had an especially small dinner.

I did not have a ton of time at the gym today, so I was able to push myself pretty hard.  It was like 7/10 on the ol' Dr. J Intensity Scale for People Who Measure Things on Scales from 1 to 10.  I had my podcast on and pushed through it.  I am going to try for another short workout tomorrow before I have to go into work. 

Today's theme is progress.  Getting 3 days of food records in the blog, as well as exercise records, is progress for me.  Every day I DO think about 'what am I going to write today?'  I FEEL the pressure to do something productive with my day.  I have other real life responsibilities that I need to better incorporate into my routine, and if I can apply the same level of pressure to myself I think it can work really well.  Essentially I need a fancy 'To Do' list with consequences for missing.  I used to put 30 things on my list, get my favorite 20 done and be happy that I did 20 things.  Now, I need to make a real list of the MOST IMPORTANT things that need to get done, and do ALL OF THEM.  This week feels like I'm getting closer to that.

However, that is all kinda wishy-washy stuff, IMO.  What I really NEED is to have some metrics.  Some measurable items to track my progress.  I'm going to add PUSHUPS, CRUNCHES and SQUATS to my daily routine.  I'm simply going to do as many as I can, without taking any kind of break.  I will do this every day before bed, and save the results.  That is a great way to add something that takes hardly any time out of my day.  My starting numbers will be pretty low, no doubt.  It's fairly embarrassing putting down some numbers that look weak.  But, 'admitting you have a problem' is always the first step.  Watching The Biggest Loser yesterday was a pretty big inspiration.  All of the contestants had to do their first weigh in in front of a huge crowd.  THAT would be tough.  Writing down my push ups on a blog in front of, well, nobody . . . not as tough, but the sentiment is there!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Tuesday, Jan 5th, 2010

So - I'm not sure if I will get to the gym today.  I'm babysitting my niece, Celia, for a few hours this morning.  I might have time before I need to go get the kids for karate.  I dunno.

I ate overnight, which is something I really, really need to work on.  I think I should prepare for this, instead of pretend like it's not going to happen tonight.  If I have melon or berries ready in the front of the fridge, I can grab those instead of grabbing processed carbs.  I also have to bank a few hundred calories to account for those that I take in overnight.

Yesterday's food: 
BREAKFAST:
Egg-white fritata, with cheese - 300 Calories
Coffee (cream and splenda) -100 Calories
LUNCH:
Thai - 500 Calories
SNACK:
Cheerios - 100 Calories
Carrots - 40 Calories
DINNER:
Turkey chili (day #2, and YUM!), with 1/2 oz Parmesan:  400 Calories
OVERNIGHT:
Chips, 1/2 Italian sausage, 7 mini-cookies, 1/2 PB&J = 800 Calories

Now, if I had taken 5mg of Valium and slept through the night I'd be a drug addict eventually I'd avoid the calories.  Instead, if I had a WHOLE CANTALOUPE I'd save about 600 calories and be on my mark.  So, instead of ignoring the truth of my overnight eating, I think I need to PLAN FOR IT.  If there are carrots, berries and melon in the front of the fridge, I think I would go for that first.  We'll try that tonight!

Today's Plan:
BREAKFAST:
Cinnamon, Raisin Toast: 150 Calories
Coffee with cream: 100 calories
LUNCH:
Turkey Chili (no cheese), 1 slice whole wheat bread: 400 Calories
SNACK:
Carrots, lots of carrots: 60 Calories
DINNER:
Chicken and Pesto: 300 Cal
Pasta: 100 Cal
OVERNIGHT:
Carrots: 100 Calories
Leftover pecan Brownie: 200 Cal

EDIT: No Gym, I was babysitting pretty much until it was time to go get my girls.

One of the great things about going through this process is that it's ok if I get a little bit selfish.  I am not shopping for what everybody else wants. I am shopping for what I NEED.  I can get the food that is best for me, and the family can adapt very easily to it.  I make good food.  Nobody is suffering.  I assure you, I am feeding my kids more than a handful of dry quinoa each night.  : )  But, I need to give myself permission to deny THEM the things that will give them fleeting and insignificant food-pleasure.  I need to treat myself (and ultimately THEM) better than that.  I need to do what's most important for me - that will be what is most important for my family in the long run.

One another note - my wife has been having difficulty getting up at 5 AM (go figure).  She prefers working out before work, but she also likes being one of the first people in the office in the morning (which is her most productive time).  So she was already waking up early to get a head start to work.  Working out after work is generally a drag for her.  Today, she did it pretty easily.  She got up HOURS BEFORE DAWN and got to the gym, had a nice workout, and still got to work at her normal time.  I am so proud and impressed!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Monday, Jan 4th, 2010 - 277 pounds

OK, drove the girls to school - zero calories.   :p
Went to the gym and ran 0.75 miles, then did 20 minutes on the elliptical with the height at 10 and resistance at 6 (lower than I normally do, but I went for an hour yesterday, so I wanted a little bit lighter elliptical today).
The workout calories are on my heart rate monitor, I will try to get those edited into the blog later.

For breakfast:
Veggie egg white fritata - 1 medium onion, 1 green pepper, 3/4 cup egg white (eggbeater stuff), 1 tablespoon butter (no salt)
Big ass coffee - 0.5 oz half and half, 4 Splendas

I have not added up that calories yet, but I figure them to be around 250 for the fritata, and about 75 for the coffee.  I am totally stuffed.

Lunch was some Tom Yum soup with chicken.  Also some basil chicken, a little bit of rice and some noodles.  I skipped the egg roll and the satay for lunch.  I did use the peanut and sour sauce with lunch.  Probably around 600 calories.

I am going to bring 3 carrots to eat on the drive home from work, so that I am not totally starving when I get home.  Last night I made 3 days worth of turkey chili for the missus and me, so that is the plan for dinner tonight - turkey chili and a mountain of produce.

EDIT: Overnight I was borderline bad - 1/2 PBJ, handful of potato chips.

Today is a tricky day, time-wise.  I am actually going into work early: 11:30.  Don't hate me, that is actually early for me.  But I drove the kids to school, worked out, cleaned the kitchen, made breakfast, got lunch packed up, wrote my blogs, got showered and changed and got on the road by 10:40 (this last part is kinda hypothetical, since I'm still writing, all that stuff is in the future).  But the real issue is balance.  Trying to balance work, kids, home, diet, exercise, hobbies (I totally wanted to log in to World of Warcraft this morning to get stuff done on my priest-character (that is a healer, not a religious thing)), the dog, the weather, etc etc.  But people tend to do only two things:  stuff that they like, and the stuff that will  prevent stuff that they HATE.  What about fitness?  Frankly, I don't like being fat, but it would be tough to say that I HATE it.  I sure don't like going to the gym.  So where does that fit.  Traditionally, it fits in at the very back of the line, the bottom of the list, and usually that stuff does not get done.  Finding balance for me means doing everything on the list.  The trick for me, is to make a really sharp list and stick to the goal of getting 100% done.

Blogging today was a goal, but now I'm like 10 minutes late getting in the shower so that I can get to work on time.  Balance is not easy.  It pretty much sucks.  But it does give me something wonderful to complain about!

Singing off and heading for the shower . . .

Welcome to Dr. J's First Health Associates Fitness Blog

I am writing this fitness blog to help focus my energy.  I want some greater level of accountability.  I have a long road ahead, and if I can write every day, if I can be accountable to the blog, then I can succeed.

About me, I was 310 pounds.  From May to August of 2009 I went down to 271 pounds.  Today I am 277 pounds.  I am about 5'10", so I SHOULD be about 160 pounds.  Even with my 'larger frame' (I'm being generous to myself), I should be about 180 pounds.  I have never been below 200 pounds in my adult life.  When I weighed 205 (in college), I was quite fit.  Getting to that weight is my ultimate goal.  But, every pound between then and now is a hurdle that I have to jump.

I plan on tracking my food and exercise in this blog.  I should include some recipes, if I get good stuff.  I will also be including my workouts.  I will weigh myself at the gym and at work.  I will note any difference between the scales, to be honest.

Wish me luck!